Ignore it or what?

Can i get you see what i have to give you. I like to make you feel special and I want to show you how beautiful you even if you can't see it. When we are can you feel the love that is in the air, or do you just ignore it.


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turn around a second time

You are special, specially to me without you I do not know that to do... I feel like I'm losing myself in a tidal wave and there is no way out, I'm drowning and I can't seem to take a breath..

One day I will show you that I am so much more than what you see, I will be the guy that girls turn around a second time to see... When he walks down the street.






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One word

I have one word to say to you, and it is love. I feel wonderful with you near, and with you far away I feel like dying. You make me feel smarter and like I can do anything.

If there is one place in this world that I want to go, it is to your heart!






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For reasons unknown

Do you know, do you really care? I don't know what I am or who I am without you, and where ever we go I feel so empty.. There is nobody out there who can really understand me I don't even think I know who I really am... I am afraid to fall in love and get broken again is happened so many times... My biggest fear is to be left, I was left as a baby for reasons unknown. the worst part of being left is not with the words "I don't love you" its with the words "I don't know why.." or "I just need time" and in the end they never come back.

I still have this dream, a dream about my real mother leaving me. Her tears fall on my face and then she turns around and walks away... I just wish that I could see her face and maybe see a bit of me there..






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Someone to give it to?

How special do you think you are to me?
if you knew would you walk away with no word to say?
If my love mean something why do I never find someone to give it to?



I like this girl but my heart is empty, when I see the feeling she haves for him on her other side..


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Worth fighting for

Lying outside in the sun, and it's really nice trying to get myself the first tan of the year. Going to keep listening to music and wait for my sister to come home and we'll make dinner... Or she will do x)

"when my mood is up I will find love and you would be worth fighting for" - Alex Cason


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WHY..?

Why don't you just come out of the closet and tell her what you feel?
I can't! 
Why what do you have to lose, don't you deserve happiness to..?!
I'm fine as long as she is happy. 
No your not, I can see it in your eyes you are lonely... even around others you are lonely.
Well all of us aren't made for happiness.
If you don't tell her you will lose her to, I have seen you giving up your own happiness for others. When will you see that you need her, or will you wait till she is gone to?
Its not that easy, I like her i do... but she will maybe be happier with someone else.  
But I say GIVE IT A CHANCE!! Because you know how to spell love, you know it in all the languages, because love is the thing you  know the most about!

This is one of the biggest struggles in my mind...

And i don't know what to tell her in the end.

how difficult it is

I want to show her that I'm sure, I want to show her that I am so much more but when I have the strength she is nowhere to be found. not knowing if I'm enough for anyone to see, I don't feel like one or the other right now I'm just in the middle and no one can see how difficult it is. I want to break myself out of this life and just run, no one can actually see what is hidden farthest in. they can't see the words that want to break free, I've never been the one they see I hide myself behind the masks to look perfect for everyone else. 

But in the end it won't work and I will break. In dreams, I am the one I want to bee and I'm not hiding, and everybody sees me for the one i am. I dare go to her and show her everything that's in my heart, how long will it take before i can do it outside of  my dreams?

she is in my heart and i can't show her...

I'll close my eyes and just forget everything.

  Or should I hope that better times lie ahead.

she is my Lois Lane

yes she makes me feel free...

My brain is burning up and I really don't know what to tell her, she is one of a kind but I can't set my finger on it.. she is my Lois Lane she will maybe always be here but never really be mine. not because I save the world but yeah you get the picture.  when i drink i stop worrying about what i feel and just let it out.


some of my favorite songs all with strong messages that makes me want to give it all to be able to love like before. now days I'm dead inside just like a shell but one day i want to break free, and go to you.

 

ran out of courage

I've changed a lot, and I feel like a different person. I don't know who I really am the more I try the more confused I get. It was a long time ago that I was happy and thrilled, in the last two years I have locked in myself and not bothered about how I feel. but it has started to change there is one person out there that makes me feel good and makes me feel alive. she means a bit but it doesn't matter, because it's just a one-way feeling. and she is not interested. i ran out of courage and I'm scared of being left behind, love is so much more than just feelings but if i can't feel how can i know. take my hand and look in to my heart what to you see? 

I would take a chance if you would...