5 years

Dreams they exist in every moment that we breath, I had a dream that was the hardest to let go of.. it was a love story that i would have fought for if you would had said so. I just realized that on sunday it would had been 5 years if we hadn't fallen apart. but the time is past for blaming you or blaming me.. to be honest i don't blame either of us. I gave it what i thought was what you wanted, but in the end it was all wrong I was no longer you prince. I don't even know if you thought of me like that? not like a prince but like a man.
I dont know how many of my friends who truly see me like it.. they may say he or just "alex" but if there came a situation that would mean questioning your opinion of the standards of a man would be will i still qualify? because all times when i meet new guys and girls i always wonder how much do they believe that i am a truly a guy.. The love I had before never new that i wasn't the person she thoug.. I more or less was but I never told her my biggest secret. I promist to protect and to love her and to never be unfaithful, but I was afraid that if i told her that she would look at me in a wired way. so i hid it so far in that i one day forgot who i wanted to be. its not like I didn't believe that she wouldn't support me, but i was so happy with what i had and i didn't want to lose it. but when it ended I wanted to find the empty feeling and find me.

It took me over 5 years to finally start my true life, before i smiled because everyone wanted to see it now I smile a smile that is truly mine.