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I am afraid of what I am and of what I will become, I don't want to bee alone I want to find my place in this world.

when I think back on my time I see so much pain I don't even remember the good times, my first love broke my heart in to pieces and my first true love broke my hart even more and now I am afraid to love again because it feels like if I fall in love again she will break my hart to and after that I will never survive. I remember so clearly every touch every kiss all the memory's but I can't remember how I broke her heart. life is so precious so way to we always re-come to pain and suffering? what tells us if we do the wrong things and how forgives are mistakes.

I don't know but ever time I am alone i recall my sad memory's and I don't think i can ever get rid of them.

there is a girl that I like she makes me smile when ever I feel down and I don't think I could stand a day without her, I know that I will never get a chance. If I ever meet her I would never let her go and I would never let anything bad to happen to her, like I did to my last girl. Maybe I am crazy but how is not.



Sometimes it feels like nobody knows what love is, questions about what to do.. I never feel tired of it but I can't understand way it is so hard I would be so happy if I only had someone by my side, it has soon been one year and nine months since I was together with a girl and my heart can still not let go off the feelings that I have for her. I want to let go and find a girl that is the right one for me and and that will love me for everything I do even if they are good or bad.